Failure means you're learning. At scale.

Over the holiday weekend, I had a lot of time in the car-driving from one family event to another-to think about what I'm going to do with this car and how I'm going to do it.  The short answer is: I have no idea.

I just spent $170 for pieces of a rear clip to repair those covered in bondo, rust and seam sealer.  Most of the pieces will arrive in a couple of days...but now I'm not sure that was the right decision.  Even after this $170 spent and the $600 spent to have them welded into place, I will still have a couple thousand dollars in body work before it gets to paint.

I'm trying to stay focused on the next step:  Taking the car to get an estimate for body work and paint tomorrow.  But I can't help thinking that it's a waste of money and time.  The estimate is going to be high and I still won't have proper heater vents.  It shouldn't bother me, but it does, and it will.  All of the little random pieces of metal welded to the body equal work that should be fixed, which equals money.  I do know that once the car is painted, the rest of it will be 'easy' because that's the largest obstacle.

I have to decide if I'm going to pack this all up and go for it (it'll cost me about $100 to move the car) or if I'm going to hold off and wait.  What am I waiting for?  I have no fucking idea....a sign, maybe?  I'm very curious about the estimate...but I don't know if it's worth the cost/time...although I've spent as much on less and I definitely have the time.

I don't know why this decision is so damned difficult...but it is.  And that tells me something (although I haven't quite deciphered the meaning yet), which leads me to hesitate.  When it comes to this car I can't seem to make a decision at all...and in every other aspect-I'm the one pushing others to make decisions.

In the theme of the 'grass is greener', I found an early car that has heater channel vents, the body is relatively straight (which doesn't matter since I have panels/doors) and it's not terribly expensive.  It's got some parts that I need and a few others that are quite hard to find.  The purchase is a decent deal but it would put a screeching halt on everything else.  It's very tempting.  So tempting that I don't want to bother taking this car in for an estimate...but I may not buy that car and I'd still need to get the work done.

It's high time I stopped looking over the fence at that nice grass...but it's just so damned green!

Background Tune: "Man on the Moon" by Sugar

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